Why I’m Coming Back to Homeschooling

I want to start off today by saying thank you for reading about my journey through grief that I shared last week. When I decided to write every day in October, I wasn’t planning on sharing all of that. But as I sat behind the computer, that is what the Lord put on my heart. So now you know more of what it means when I say “life turned upside down for me.” Let’s get back to the home-school journey, shall we?

By spring break, I began praying about next school. It’ just a habit of mine. That’s always the time I begin preparing for the next school year, so it just happened naturally.

I was praying about whether this public school thing was a new season for us or if this semester was just a time to let the dust settle and we would return to home-schooling again next year.

We decided to go on our first family ski trip over spring break, which felt so official since the kids were in school. When you home-school, you can take spring break any week or month March through May, but this year this was the week!

I had already made up the school decision in my head, but on the drive to New Mexico I realized I hadn’t exactly poured over it in prayer.

I was impressed with how things were going in public school. I was able to have some segments to life and not just have everything mixing with everything else all the time. I had healthy boundaries, space to myself and the ability to go to lunch with my husband if I wanted to. Plus the kids were learning!

I told the Lord it seemed logical to me to continue with public school for those reasons. But I know His ways aren’t always logical so I swallowed hard and said I would surrender to what He said was best.

It always surprises me the way He orchestrates people and circumstance to answer those honest prayers.

Our first night at the ski resort we sat down to dinner and right beside us was a family with 6 kids. Adam recognized the dad as Cole Hefner, who was running for State Representative at the time. His family had done business with us in the past and so Adam went over to shake his hand.

We chatted for awhile waiting on our food to arrive, and it turns out they live about an hour from us, have kids the same age as ours and…yes…home-school.

 Funny, I told the Lord that night before going to bed. I came out here to pray about school next year and you place a home-school family right next to me!

The next day, while Cole’s wife and I were watching our children continuously fall down on the bunny slopes, I told her my sob story about my grandfather and described us as a home-school minded public school family. I thought we had made up our mind to put all the kids in school next year.

That night, I really prayed about home-schooling. It was the kind of night I couldn’t get to sleep because my spirit was unsettled.

As I laid awake into the wee hours of the morning, the Lord reminded me of the little “g” god of rest and relaxation that I’m drawn to worship. I like life to be do-able, comfortable and I possessively protect my time.

My time is a rarity for home-schoolers and one of my greatest struggles.

The other struggle with home-schooling is that I also feel called to write. It’s like a part-time job for me now and it’s my favorite part of the day. Carving out time to write, however, often leaves me feeling guilty for not working on one of the 100 chores that always needs to be done.

I’ve never juggled two callings before and my all-or-nothing personality wants to pick one or the other, but not both. I just don’t see how it’s possible.

It makes sense to me to put the kids in school so I can focus on writing – something I feel strongly called to do.


I can put writing completely away and focus on home-schooling.

Trying to wrap my brain around doing both of those blows my mind. I just can’t picture it – and picture a sane Mama, able to cook dinner and do the household chores too.

But as the week progressed and I kept praying, I felt strongly the Lord was giving me a challenge. Yes, I could put the kids in school and focus on my writing. Or yes, I could close my laptop and just focus on school.

OR, there was one more option: Do both and trust God for the strength and time to do them. 

As I discussed all this with my husband, he boiled it down. He said, “Julie, what I see is you can do one of these in your strength, or you can do both in God’s strength.”

I couldn’t get away from it – there on the ski slopes of New Mexico, I believed God was calling me back to homeschooling and also calling me to continue writing. I had to throw away my common sense and trust Him!

I agreed to do that and then cried for weeks!

I felt like my desire to home-school again was dead. God would truly have to resurrect it to make this work. Thankfully, there was still two months of school left – enough time for a new revelation, right?!

But eventually I accepted the realization that the Lord wasn’t kidding – this was best.

Ephesians 1:18-19 says, I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you.

I may see my inadequacies and inabilities and weaknesses, but God says “I made you for this Julie. I fashioned you in such a way that you can do both if you’ll just trust me.” 

I couldn’t argue with that anymore!

So now, we’re coming back to home-schooling!

Words to an old hymn come to mind:

“1. My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness;
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly lean on Jesus’ name.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

2. When darkness veils His lovely face,
I rest on His unchanging grace;
In every high and stormy gale
My anchor holds within the veil.
On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;
All other ground is sinking sand.


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This post is apart of a series called 31 stories of hope for every homeschooler. To see the entire series, click HERE.


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