John 12:24 “Truly, truly I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.”
The harsh reality of bearing fruit for God’s kingdom rather than my own is that the first criterion involves death. The death of myself.
God knows the desires of my heart. He knows what I love, what I long for, what I dream of. But before they can be His gift to me that produces fruit for His kingdom, all the ME must die.
I must on bended knee with sincerity of heart hand it over to Him and drop my hand away.
I may never see that part of me again. It’s like cutting a ribbon –
As I let some seed fall to the ground and die today, I cover them up in soil God has tilled, weeded and fertilized. I water it with the promises in His Word and offer my prayers in a broken and contrite spirit.
I don’t know what will become of any of these seeds. But I have fully given them to my Creator in a way I never have before.
Right now Faith for me is believing God is working in the background even when I can’t see Him. I know it sounds so basic, but has never been so real.
I don’t know what He’s working on, but He’s working.
I’m left holding on, and covering my seeds in the faith that He is the Master Gardner.
My circumstances have not surprised Him. He knows me – all my strengths and all my weaknesses.
He knows the things in life that have the potential to swallow me up. He know the fire that I walk through. The water that threatens to sweep over me. Do you know what He says about it all?
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name,
You are mine.
When you pass through the waters I will be
And through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you.
When you walk through the fire you shall not be burned.“
Because you are precious in my eyes
and honored and I love you – says the Lord.”
That’s where my faith is today. My buried seed has died. I’m not trusting in a shallow “God’s got this” phrase. Those words don’t seep deep enough for me.
Whatever I walk through, He IS with me. Present tense. I am His. Circumstances do not and will not define me. His love does that. I am Precious and Honored in His sight.
Lies, be silent!
From there, I walk today in Faith.